It’s been 4 weeks and although my body is pretty much stabilized, my mind is in a different place. I️ am not ready to face the looks and hugs and questions. More importantly, I️ still need answers and I’m not going to stop until I get some answers.
Why does my body keep rejecting babies? What is happening to my body at the time of the miscarriage? What type of foods do I need to eat in order to combat this infection? What type of medications do I need to take in order to ensure this infection does not take over my body again? How much weight can I️ lose before trying to conceive again?
I have so many questions, but so little time to get answers because as of today, my ovulation test is blinking Which means that my LH level is surging and getting ready to release another egg. Normally, I would be excited about seeing a smiley face because with PCOS it is very rare that I ovulate monthly. I’m assuming because I just had a baby my body is self regulating and that is why people say you are most fertile after you have a baby. I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was only 17 years old. I was a Track Star, with only 18% body fat, exercised daily, and ate pretty healthy back then. The condition is so random and cannot be cured by medicine only managed. Actually, research says that pregnancy is a cure. Nevertheless, the condition causes me to ovulate 3-5 times per year (normal is 12). This means I do not know when my egg will ever come out....until now. I just decided to test this week because it has been a month and most studies I have read says that my period should come about 4 to 8 weeks after giving birth (longer if breastfeeding).
So the question I ask today, in about 2 to 4 days, do I fertilize this egg or let it be? Or do I️ wait, get answers first and pray that the next one will not take six-twelve months to come out? Of course the decision is ours, but I am letting you in on the internal anguish that I am facing right now...
Why does my body keep rejecting babies? What is happening to my body at the time of the miscarriage? What type of foods do I need to eat in order to combat this infection? What type of medications do I need to take in order to ensure this infection does not take over my body again? How much weight can I️ lose before trying to conceive again?
I have so many questions, but so little time to get answers because as of today, my ovulation test is blinking Which means that my LH level is surging and getting ready to release another egg. Normally, I would be excited about seeing a smiley face because with PCOS it is very rare that I ovulate monthly. I’m assuming because I just had a baby my body is self regulating and that is why people say you are most fertile after you have a baby. I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was only 17 years old. I was a Track Star, with only 18% body fat, exercised daily, and ate pretty healthy back then. The condition is so random and cannot be cured by medicine only managed. Actually, research says that pregnancy is a cure. Nevertheless, the condition causes me to ovulate 3-5 times per year (normal is 12). This means I do not know when my egg will ever come out....until now. I just decided to test this week because it has been a month and most studies I have read says that my period should come about 4 to 8 weeks after giving birth (longer if breastfeeding).
So the question I ask today, in about 2 to 4 days, do I fertilize this egg or let it be? Or do I️ wait, get answers first and pray that the next one will not take six-twelve months to come out? Of course the decision is ours, but I am letting you in on the internal anguish that I am facing right now...
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