I️ Was wondering if I should share this picture. Many people may think it’s disturbing to take a picture after your baby has passed away. But this is my last image of her before giving her back to the ground. I want you now that if you are sensitive about the subject it may not be a good idea to continue reading. But this is my truth. On the day that she was born, there were two things tested out about her that made her a dinner good to me. When I was born I had these slanted eyes, round nose and chubby cheeks. The cheeks has never gone away! When I saw her caramel skin and chubby cheeks, I️ cried even more. For the first time, I️ was able to look into a baby and see myself! This is an exclusive for my blog. My angel.
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NINE WEEKS! It’s been 9 weeks since I️ gave birth with no evidence to prove it externally, but internally is a different story. My body has never been this dysfunctional. I️ have been bleeding for the most part of the nine weeks. Poor hubby probably feeling so deprived. Then, this damn line won’t go away on my stomach! It’s a constant reminder that I️ was recently pregnant. I️ can’t move on because my body won’t let me move on. Everyday I️ wake up and I️ go to the bathroom and I️ feel weak and I️ have to take all these pills...IS A CONSTANT REMINDER! How can I️ move on? Huh?! My original due date is coming in a few more weeks and just the thought of not having her at the right time still hurts my heart deeply. I️ can’t move until...maybe never.