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The Due Date

Well, I️ can’t leave out this year without talking about how I️ made it past the due date...well, I️ didn’t. The first due date was November 22, 2018 and I️ was so proud to be having a Thanksgiving baby. But when Thanksgiving arrived, I️ cried. I️ cried not because I️ lost my baby, but because I️ also lost someone who I️ thought was my best friend until she shaded me online!

I️ was so angry but instead of calmly talking to her, I️ went to the far extreme and just blocked her! And I️ mean I️ blocked her from everything! But these are remnants of anger that I️ have been taking out on not just her, but everyone around me...especially my teen nephew. He told me today all I️ do is yell at him. I️ am not that person! Who have I️ become?! I’ve been acting like this mean, angry, cold woman who won’t take no mess and have high expectations from everyone! You can’t make no mistakes around me or your head on the chopping block! I️ have been working with my Therapist on establishing healthy boundaries and I️ have been taking it to the far extreme!

I️ just want to get back to fun loving Ty not this person who is an imposter!

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